And so, i am awake at before sunrise, yet again, watching seventh heaven. As usual. Brutal show..love it XD  but i do admit its annoying when even if i want to sleep, i cant i was laying in bed for 5 hours, and out of those 5 hours...300 minutes, that is, only 10 of them i was able to sleep D: and now, the sky is lighting, bare light, indigo, i believe it is, with tinges of strange dark blue, and some green..i think >.< but whatever..why am i talking about the sky and all? well, last time i actually used deviantart properly, i was on medication for my skin which inhibited my ability to be creative.. seems that effect is still in play for now, but slowly im breaking through, with a recent drawing i did of siryn from x-force of marvel comics. creative, enthused and all that, its just annoying, but at least i felt fulfilled after completing that drawing. its been annoying, not being able to concerntrate, too. i mean, of coarse i have moments of clarity where i can find something interesting in my mind, write down a dream, or basically redraw something i've done time after time, but its just not entertaining anymore. its hard to achieve something at the moment, and its just hell. i plan on reading something today, so that i can maybe clear my mind(my mind is pretty clear when i read. the new knowledge seems to sweep the old, annoying clutter in my brain for a while...least till the dust settles). So im thinking, either one of the digital books i have(all of tolkien, the whole narnia series, or practically all of anne rice's books), or some of my hard copy books...maybe re-read a favourite one by arthur c clark that goes by the title "a fall of moondust" or something along those lines. haha.but yes, its been an inconveniant hell for me, especially since im dead with uni. need to get a doctors certificate for that, actually..i mean, i fell behind, and i kept being behind cause i couldnt do a single thing. and moreso, even if i could have done a half of what i was supposed to do, it wouldnt have counted for anything, since the half would have been the introduction to university, and the half undone would have been the entirety of art and creativity subject. So technically, i couldnt. no imagination, no ability to do the subject. GOD I FEEL LIKE A SLURPEE! D:

But anyway, point is, im going to get back into deviant art, and get back into art itself. Its still quite hard. i have constant headaches for a lot of the time, and i cant keep track of my mind, and when i try to sleep, i cant because my mind is in overdrive when i go to bed for some reason, all my thoughts and fantasies and memories and ideas and half dreams and imaginations just...show themselves for some reason...its really inconveniant ..but at least im getting away from it.. just need my day to become day again, and not the entirety of night time..unless i became a vampire...then i'd be fine..get a night job(graveyard shift as they call it, i think), and i'd be fast and untireing, so i could just run to my destination..get there 10 times quicker than driving or whatever...and i'd be clear minded, since vampires are able to keep all knowledge they learn.

Then again, i could just screw everything and get the 7th heaven box set >.> what can i say, i love seventh heaven..its so lame, yet so good.. but anyway...ughh...AND MUM STILL OWES ME A CHOCOLATE RIPPLE CAKE!! D:...im hungry and thirsty and tired and awake and annoyed and...blargh!...also, lonely....very lonely..